Happiness Is a Choice Even for the Wedded

I am a Christian by choice
I follow my faith by choice
I make friends of my choice
I eat the food of my choice
I select clothes of my choice
I wear my hair of my choice
I wear the make up, footwear, watch and perfume of my choice
I work, sleep, pray, play, cry of my choice.

I am an individual and I am independent...until I was married

I am still a Christian by choice
I still follow my faith by choice
I still have my friends but do not talk to them as often and that again is my choice
I still eat the food of my choice
I also select clothes of my choice
I wear my hair and perfume of my choice but I sometimes don't like it myself
I wear my footwear and watch of my choice but my husband doesn't like it
But I don't work, sleep, pray, play and cry of my choice.. I am led to it.

I am still an individual yet a dependant in 'every' way

Life has changed in more than one way, it has certainly changed and I 'choose' to believe it is for the good. My husband loves me, Oh yes he does! *long pause & sigh * ;P And I have a good life, a very good life.. more than I expected. Thank you Lord.

This is not the life I planned, this is not the life I desired, this is not the life I dreamt of.

But what I am given surpasses everything. I am struggling to be myself and expect to be appreciated, but it doesn't happen...and that kills me in and out like a two-edged sword.

But I am in the plan of God, I am better off that most people I know. I ALSO have reasons to be happy and I just want to concentrate on that.. JUST that.

Happiness is now my choice, and I got that!

Happiness can be your choice too! :)

The Love for My Man

It's changing.. for the good. 

I love him almost all the time. Most of the time it's alive and real, like the breezy wind on your face, some other times its like the presence of air in the atmosphere, which is simply present. I've discovered when you love someone with so much involvement, respect and desire, your mind would always find a way to fix issues within yourself and never to dissolve the relationship.

So here's this man in my life, He came from a direction I wasn't even looking and now all I am directed to is unto him. He is the man in my life and I love him like I've never loved another. He may never know and perhaps, I'll never show.

Household Chores

Try it, you'll feel good.

I am amazed at myself for becoming the person I have become. Household chores and me have been poles antonyms. I don't remember keeping the mug at the sink after sipping cold coffee which was by the way made by mom and brought to me by the maid. Yes, a lazy ass of the laziest order.

In the last couple of days things have started to change. I WANT to help out at home. I CHOOSE to do dusting, mobbing, cleaning and sweeping. I feel good doing it. I feel I am making sense being a part of my family. I know I'm taking responsibility and I feel good about it. It has helped me see myself in the way I haven't seen myself before. I feel like a person of substance. I love this contribution to my family. I love it all. Its made me realize a lot of things, to cut the long story short - Life is what you make out of it.

By the way, God is always there WHENEVER you want HIM, but you gotta do what you ought to do. He ain't doing that for you.

(I know the thoughts shared here and the writing are not in segue. I've just started, I know I'll get better. Thank you for understanding ;) )

It's a beautiful life, yes it is.

Ok , I don't know what I was thinking when I decided the title should be "It's a beautiful life".

As much as I'm sure the meaning of the title is true, I don't know what prompted me into finalizing on that. I've been wanting to blog for many years now. I have always loved the art of writing, to be honest I find words more attractive than boys ;) Talking about what I love to right about, well I would say anything that creates an impact in my life thereby causing awe, terror, disappointment or excitement.

Other things that make my life beautiful would be.. Jesus, Bible, talking to God, His presence, attending church gatherings on time, family, friends, books, movies, music, internet,  and the uncalled for experiences in life. Though I don't have a followable mantra to lead life, I have always practised outliving pain and never sinking into any sorrow. May be one of the reasons I find life beautiful is the inert combination in the mystery of life to enjoy life through it's pits and highs..

PS: This blog has been pending in my Drafts from Sept 2012, thank God it sees day light in April 2013.